WHAT

sister just texted me the Scaradise photo op schedule. my mom and sister's photo op is at 9;30am in Tampa. 🫠 so we have to leave and be on our way at 5am it's about 3 hours to Tampa. I have to be up at 4am and get dolled up for only an hour. I'm gonna be so fuckin' tired. how am I gonna survive this? I wanna be on my A game for my picture with Justin. at least it ends at 7pm instead of 9/10pm like I initially thought. I guess ill just stay here and get ready quietly in the bathroom. then have my mom and sister pick me up to head up to Tampa. of course bf is bitching about it cuz he has to watch the baby all day and a lot of the night. big baby as always. i hope sophia will be good without me. thats what I am worried over. I hope she's gonna be okay waking up to me not being there. i am gonna talk about it all week beforehand so she's aware. 

still no clue what I wanna wear?? how am I gonna do my makeup?? 

mood: 😓 nervous
music: Idlehands - "El Shakes"