poor baby

yesterday was... babygirl wasn't eating her dinner and I just figured she wasn't hungry. bf stopped by for a min. so we get in the car and she tells me her belly hurts and I figured she was hungry and during this i had just left my mom's and realized I forgot my left over Chipotle. so as I am turning around at a light she just starts throwing up all over the place. non stop. so I cut cars off and zoom back to my mom's and get her out. my car was quite the site after ugh. it was all the oatmeal and tater tots she had earlier. so I text bf and told him to come back right away. so I take her inside my moms where my sister and mom were. we washed her off in the shower then I went outside to clean it. bf came back and we got the carseat out of my car. he had to hose it down. so she isn't cooperating at all so she starts having a full on meltdown. we get back to the house and I had to force her out if the car and carry her in kicking and screaming. we get inside and she throws up again, all over me, herself and her blanket. so she screamed bloody murder fir 20 mins til I was able to calm her down and read her books. she fell asleep after right away. I felt so bad. 

back to the beginning she was in pain trying to potty so I made her an appt to get checked out. she had to pee in a bag so they could test it. results came back and they were negative of any uti. so idk exactly what was wrong or what happened. I thought the antibiotics were were given made her sick but I think she just had some weird 24 hr bug. the painful urinating tho i dont know what was wrong but shes sure as shit feeling better today.not listening to me at all. shes supposed to be in bed asleep at 8 30 but she's fuckibg around. sigh 

at least she's feeling normal now. that was crazy.

Father's Day

more tantrums, more car problems. well, the car works since they changed the mass air flow sensor but now the infotainment console is doing what they call "ghost touching". apparently the mazda cx5's have the worst infotainment consoles of any of them but offff course. so I did some research and they said to stop that, you have to unplug the wire that connects the touch screen feature. so if you disable it, it stops the erratic ghost touching. yesterday mine went haywire. it even called my hair stylist randomly. I dont even use the touch screen feature and you can't even use it when driving anyway. so I asked Zack about this and he said he can do this. youtube shows you tutorials but I don't want to fuck with taking apart my dashboard myself or any of that. but since it's causing issues due to Florida's heat? then i'll just have him unplug that wire.

so the mom again. I've still had some small bs but I ignored best I could. but she's getting extra weird again. I usually remove myself as much as I can because from a professional's stand point you have to stay away from narcissistic people for my own mental health. so shes always out there when my daughter is in the pool with her dad. so I never feel comfortable going out there. finally she was not around so I went outside. then she comes out and i just go back in after a couple mins. then she says to bf "did i interrupt something?" all innocent like. you know you did, hoe. then shortly after, my daughter comes in and says "grandma scares mommy" over and over. then she ran back in the room with the old hag and i heard her say "did you just tell on me?". i was livid because shes manipulating again. you never talk about adult dynamics with a 2 year old. she projects her bs onto my daughter and I hate that. so I told bf and he told her to never do that again and she acted like she had no idea what he was referring to, saying she never said that. then during a major toddler tantrum this old B says "i don't think she can be out here anymore (the living room)". fuuuuck you. wide load bitch. so after all of that bs

we went to Wasabi and got Thai food. last time we were there my daughter was being horrible and dropped her bracelets in the booth and we were gonna check to see if they were still there but people sat there. waiter told me.we looked like Joker & Harley Quinn and that he loved our style 😊  and some fat, greasy creep sitting with his dad turned around to look at us MULTIPLE times. my bf kept telling me about it and I noticed it too before we sat down. staring so hard and breaking his neck to look. creepy. but our food was so good tho.

babygirl slept horribly last night. since we picked her up from my moms a little passed her bedtime she didnt end up going to sleep until 10pm and woke up crying at 12 45am. she wanted to change nightgown, use the potty and drink my water. ugh. then she woke up at 6am and wanted to potty again and she only wanted to lay with me on her little couch so I couldn't fall back asleep then it was uncomfortable. then she fell asleep and woke up screaming at 8 30am. im struggling today. zzz

skressed!!

struggling again. the terrible 2s are still ongoing bro like... i can't handle it. still doesn't fet in the carseat right away. she fucks around all over the car and refuses to get in the seat right away. ive tried multiple methods. ive tried bribing, yelling, counting. they all only worked briefly. like when does this stage go away? this has been ongoing for 2 months or so. 

she also has this new phase where she says everything is hers. she bullies other kids at the playground by saying "leave sophia alone", "not yours!", "its mine!". yuck I dont like that attitude at all. so trying to figure out methods to abolish that behavior. 

had a horrible morning with her screaming and shaking out of anger. she was trying to play in the sink when it was time to get dressed. she refused to get dressed. she keeps saying "no fanks". i like her polite way of saying no but no... gotta ✋️  so yea been struggling as a toddler mom with this.

but she's super loving. she hugged my back yesterday and said love you mommy. 😭 she's very loving. hugs people and says "awww". i love her so fucking much but she be trying me. 

yesterday we saw a baby alligator come up to us cuz it had a hook stuck in its mouth. we called animal control and they said they can't do anything and that its super common and usually the hook rusts off and falls off their mouth. man, idk, the way that it floated over to us asking for help is breaking my heart. this happened last year with the turtle and the hook in its mouth. swam over to us and hovered around us asking for help 😭  im gonna check on the baby alligator later today and try and feed him. see if hes able to eat. animal control did say to check on him and see if hes still swimming and eating. poor baby.

my car feels cursed. I love it so much, its so kawaii and I am so happy but it feels like something new wrong every week. so the engine would so8nd like it was revving in park. it was super jerky driving too. so I had Zack switch spark plugs. it fixed it for a week then started again. so I took it to this mechanic bf knows and took his old vehicle to.  he said sensor errors came up and I read that its cuz after changing spark plugs, the system doesn't recognize its been changed yet. so they cleared the sensors and it stopped. he said if it does it again (cuz it could) then to bring it back. I am also starting to use 93 octane gas and so far its running smoother. so then yesterday morning the air was low on the tire. bf filled it up and noticed it had a nail on it. so we took it to mechanic for him to plug it and what does he say? he found 2 other screws in the same fucking tire!! so my guess is the bozos doing construction on this house my my moms are dropping screws left and right. cuz how else would I have 3 nails in one tire unless someone is deliberately doing it. i need to get new back tires at this point. its just always something. also the white stains on the hood that won't come off and have already etched itself into the paint.... car didn't have any of this bs when I got it 2 months ago. am I just cursed????

so ill need 2 new tires and a paint job. fun times