skressed!!

struggling again. the terrible 2s are still ongoing bro like... i can't handle it. still doesn't fet in the carseat right away. she fucks around all over the car and refuses to get in the seat right away. ive tried multiple methods. ive tried bribing, yelling, counting. they all only worked briefly. like when does this stage go away? this has been ongoing for 2 months or so. 

she also has this new phase where she says everything is hers. she bullies other kids at the playground by saying "leave sophia alone", "not yours!", "its mine!". yuck I dont like that attitude at all. so trying to figure out methods to abolish that behavior. 

had a horrible morning with her screaming and shaking out of anger. she was trying to play in the sink when it was time to get dressed. she refused to get dressed. she keeps saying "no fanks". i like her polite way of saying no but no... gotta ✋️  so yea been struggling as a toddler mom with this.

but she's super loving. she hugged my back yesterday and said love you mommy. 😭 she's very loving. hugs people and says "awww". i love her so fucking much but she be trying me. 

yesterday we saw a baby alligator come up to us cuz it had a hook stuck in its mouth. we called animal control and they said they can't do anything and that its super common and usually the hook rusts off and falls off their mouth. man, idk, the way that it floated over to us asking for help is breaking my heart. this happened last year with the turtle and the hook in its mouth. swam over to us and hovered around us asking for help 😭  im gonna check on the baby alligator later today and try and feed him. see if hes able to eat. animal control did say to check on him and see if hes still swimming and eating. poor baby.

my car feels cursed. I love it so much, its so kawaii and I am so happy but it feels like something new wrong every week. so the engine would so8nd like it was revving in park. it was super jerky driving too. so I had Zack switch spark plugs. it fixed it for a week then started again. so I took it to this mechanic bf knows and took his old vehicle to.  he said sensor errors came up and I read that its cuz after changing spark plugs, the system doesn't recognize its been changed yet. so they cleared the sensors and it stopped. he said if it does it again (cuz it could) then to bring it back. I am also starting to use 93 octane gas and so far its running smoother. so then yesterday morning the air was low on the tire. bf filled it up and noticed it had a nail on it. so we took it to mechanic for him to plug it and what does he say? he found 2 other screws in the same fucking tire!! so my guess is the bozos doing construction on this house my my moms are dropping screws left and right. cuz how else would I have 3 nails in one tire unless someone is deliberately doing it. i need to get new back tires at this point. its just always something. also the white stains on the hood that won't come off and have already etched itself into the paint.... car didn't have any of this bs when I got it 2 months ago. am I just cursed????

so ill need 2 new tires and a paint job. fun times