ANJELIC 🍊

got my seat covers on my car finally. 

I also got my personalized license plate in the mail way faster than I thought it'd take. 🪽  😇 

cars pretty much done. Z put the new brake switch in my car so those annoying sensors stopped but now I need new spark plugs. something the dealership should have done, no? they didn't so I bought new ones and hes gonna put them in for me. should be good after all 'at. baby girl is sleeping and im chilling in the car at the park. she's been a lot to handle. im not flying off the handle as badly as I was but still isn't easy. I dont want to. but I will probably seek out a new psychiatrist. hate taking meds. I've lost 26 lbs and I do not want to gain any weight with these meds. my hair also stopped coming out due to telogen effluvium and I dont want that to happen from anti psychotic meds.  hate those. I might get reevaluate cuz after I had my baby i notice I don't have manic episodes any more. but who knows. 

we were gonna go to see Taking Back Sunday the 6th but the tickets sky rocketed for shitty seats.  fuck that. 

outing

finally got to go out without baby. my mom watched her over night. we went to Lures and met up with Paige. felt weird cuz i was dolled up and when I stepped out of the Lyft, everyone turned around and stared. not use to going out anymore so I hated that. after we stopped by the bar. we hit up Crawdaddys and all 3 of us split a pasta dish. finally tried that martini bar and 17 bucks for a gross martini 😒 i also got carded by a girl way younger than me. she asked me how old i was and laughed waiting for my ID. gave it to her and she looked at me as if I was lying.  she reportedly gave my sister's friend a hard time getting in once too. whatever ill take it positively. went back to party at the bar and mrt some new girls and swapped IGs. we Lyfted back to the house and Paige came over for a bit. I think it was 3 30 when we finally went to bed. I chugged pedialyte beforehand which made the hangover way better to combat. 

so back to reality again. I dont feel changed and relaxed like I thought I would. still having angry, frustrated outbursts when my baby won't listen. idk what else to do other than get on a mood stabilizer that I don't want. I've also been hella stressed since we've had a fly invasion for the past 2 weeks. like alllĺ over the porch and the dumb hoe mom leaves the back door open and they infest the house. we've been battling them for weeks. I refuse to eat here cuz I physically can't without gagging. I think they're finally subsiding. I hope. 

got a hold of a car dealer that's going to detail my car and hopefully fix the stains on there I can't seem to get off.