plans

so schedule for me; hair appt in Friday. then the next day (Saturday), we are going out for bfs birthday, while my mom watches baby girl over night. we couldn't seal a deal with the hotel cuz the one we wanted which had a beach view, did not accept afterpay. so fuck it, getting some shroom bars and gonna trip and chill at the house. kinda lame, but bf had a good point that since we are gonna be taking magic mushrooms for the first time in YEARS we dont wanna have a bad trip. we want to be home where its comfortable. I am nervous to take them cuz I haven't since before I got pregnant. throw back to our psychedelic days. so I am gonna take it slow for sure. would have been so dope to see the moon, stars & waves while on them but its fine. 

then I have my psych appt on the 3rd of Oct and I am gonna tell her that I just want to go back on Abilify. I am gonna ask about maybe bumping my adderall up to 20 mg. I told her 10s were good for me before but I feel like they just dont work as long with just 10s. 

then we're going to the convention where... i am gonna.... meet Justin Long *squeal*. so I saw this TikTok video yesterday of some girl saying she met Justin at some bar she was at and he came over to where she was sitting with some other celeb. she said she made some comment to him and he just looked at her like ~why you talking to me~. she was saying he was polite but made her feel like shit. I dont know him in person obvi. but I just cant see him being like that. unless what she said bothered him. I didnt quite understand the story she told so idk. but plz Justin dont be mean to me I love you. so I have been thinking about what I wanna say to him. 😬😵‍💫 and i am gonna be my usual stoops self and be like "guess what my fav movie is that you've done" and make him guess, cuz he will not guess it. THE WAVE i will say. I will tell him my bf wanted to come too but had to watch the baby and that we both love that movie. it was life changing for me. if I am brave enough and have some time with him I will ask him to shout him out in a video lmao. I Def want to ask Emile Hirsch to shout him out in a video cuz he absolutely loves him and that movie Into The Wild. so I am gonna do that for him. 

then the very next day is my moms birthday. also my physical check up with a new Dr. 

busy bee 

then The Faint in November 

🎵 now playing: Mook - "Malmo"

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