stopped taking the medicine. I just want to go on what I was on previously for bipolar and ocd. dont wanna risk having any manic episodes or anything strange happen. 

going to see Hail The Sun tomorrow night. I hate when I dont feel like going to things. when you see a band coming around and you get tix but when the time comes youre lazy af and dont feel like doing all'at. but once I am there I have fun. happens almost every time I have an event to go to. I am PMSing so I am bloated and feel blah. can't stop eating bad shit. so i guess ill wear something flowy 🙃 

arguing with bf over his birthday weekend because he doesn't want to book a hotel on the beach anymore. we were going to use afterpay to book it but hes all worried it won't work and he'll be charged the full price of the room. I tried explaining over and over how it works, how afterpay works and to obviously not worry about money because youre gradually paying over time. bitch won't get one now. I even told him that this is a one time chance to do this. his bday plans fell thru with the Polynesian place so why not get a hotel locally on the beach. my mom's watching our baby over night. its your fuckin chance bro. whyyyy??? Paige bought him 2 mushroom chocolate bars and he rather sit around our bedroom instead of going to a hotel on the beach to trip. so gay. boring. we argued over it cuz he wasn't listening to me. so im like ok whatever then dont. im not gonna beg you to. just thought it'd be way cooler to be able to walk on the beach and trip watching the waves and stuff. now his excuse is itll be raining the whole time. ugh like FORGET it bro. lame old man who is almost 50.

so I have a hair appt the day before we go out for his birthday. then I have to save money for my psychiatry appt which is 185 😫  then the day after is me meeting Justin Long 😵‍💫 then I have to save money for new tires. 

what the fuck is going on. 4 Spanish homies just walked right past my car. now an old lady just parked next to me when there is an entire parking lot to park in. I am also in an odd space. why is she RIGHT HERE?!?!?  now the homies are coming back and walking right by my car again. im outa here. the fuhK.

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