terrible twos

 terrible twos has been hell. I have cried because I hate getting so mad at her and yelling at her. I feel so shitty after. I just need a real fucking break for real. so next Friday my mom is gonna watch her over night and were going to pick her up the next day. i wanna go out and spend a good night out having fun and not worrying about getting back in time etc. I havent had that since Sept when we went to Orlando to see one of my fave bands The Sleeping. I bought myself a new dress and everything. I plan to have a real fucking night out. whenever i get this put of my system I am good for many months. but I neeeeeed this. baby girl has been a lot. full blown screaming fits, crying and drooling and flipping out every night. every time we try and get her in and out of a car she messes around and climb all over the car and doesn't get in her seat or get out. sooo annoying I hate this phase. ahe doesn't sit in carts, she stands up and fights us on it. she runs in the street and takes off. its so scary and horribly frustrating. I haven't had the time to sit and blog like I want. I havent had a single moment to myself. i keep getting mad too cuz my bf falls asleep when im fighting her and putting her to bed. i got so mad last night over this. must be fucking grand to sleep without concern. I take care of her 90% of the time. like how about staying awake to be fair to the struggling parent.  I'd feel shitty falling asleep. I got mad about it last night. 

so my hair appt is next Friday then were gonna go out. 🥳